It Isn't Always Easy
by Maria from California
I surely felt many strong emotions after the birth of my first child in August 2019.
There was a lot of pain that resurfaced from my childhood. Overall, the first 6 months were very tough. Though there were days and many moments of joy, I struggled a lot to control my negative emotions.
I remember at that time I had three clients whom I did blog writing for and some social media. Blog writing was a great outlet and helped me feel helpful and productive. However, eventually, around the beginning of the shutdowns in March 2020 due to the pandemic, I started losing clients. Eventually, I had zero clients. I still did some blogging but it was tough not to be helping with the family’s finances.
I remember reading Life and Death in Shanghai by Nien Cheng. I also read I Am Nujood Age 10 & Divorced by Nujood Ali. Reading was one of the best things I did to help me be happy and content. I recommend reading; you can do it while pumping or breastfeeding.
I remember having scary thoughts and having to remind myself that none of that was real. It was very tough since the images looked so real. I spoke with my husband and relied on God. This included writing/journaling to God, reading the Bible, and taking notes. During this time I was susceptible to believing doctrine from a church I previously attended. I struggled to maintain a strong mind, and many times, I felt very weak.
My newborn, second child, is almost two months, and I can say things are a lot better. I am not experiencing as strong emotions as with my first child. I am writing, reading, and even applying to writing jobs.
This blog was written by one of our guest bloggers, Maria.
About Maria - My family and I live in Ridgecrest, CA. We just welcomed our second child at the beginning of August. My focus is being a mom and wife. During my free time, I enjoy writing, reading, note-taking, watching movies, and sewing. I studied journalism in college and plan on taking the Federal Court Interpreter Exam next year. God willing.
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